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Sometimes I don’t feel like worshiping, especially when I am depressed like today. I think it is in those times I need it the most.

Sometimes i feel forgotten, unloved, unappreciated, unwanted and unimportant.

Yet, God will never leave not forsake me. He loves me always. He cares for me. He wants me. I am important to Him because I am His daughter. When I feel alone I am reminded that to trust God even in the wilderness.

My heart was saying, “Lord, take away this longing, or give me that for which I long.” The Lord was answering, “I must teach you to long for something better.

Tell me about your passion

Tell me what makes you tick

Tell me all the things you’ve discovered about yourself

after all these years of searching

Why do you do the things you do and

how did you get to be such a beautiful creature?

I want to get to know you in a very deep way

So I can justify this love…

this so much love I’m feeling for you.

There is beauty in brokenness… If it had not been for those times when I was completely broken, I would not have cried out for God to fix me. If it had not been for those times when I was alone, I would not have prayed for God to stay close to me. If it had not been for those times when I had no hope, I would not have asked God to restore it.

If it had not been for those times when I felt like life had no meaning, I would not have seen God’s amazing love up close and personal.

“Unless Jesus Christ remains our first love, we’ll always be looking to a mere human to meet the deepest needs in our hearts, and we’ll always be disappointed because they are needs that only God can satisfy.”
~Leslie Ludy.

Whew I was so emo the past few days talaga…haha! :P

Hey If you’re going to fall in love with me…

If you’re going to fall in love with me,
don’t fall in love with my Sunday best
don’t fall in love with the way I look
after spending hours getting ready
or my fakest smile or freshly done hair
fall in love with my body, the way it
widens quite a lot around my hips
and how I will never have that perfect figure
and how I honestly don’t really care
fall in love with my impatience, my jealous
moods and the times that I don’t feel anything at all
and fall in love with how sometimes I act like a child
whilst other times I can be the most mature
fall in love with my scars, my marks and
all the things that makes me far less than perfect
and fall in love with every part of me, both good and bad,
and especially with all that I consider a flaw
fall in love with me as a whole
or don’t fall in love with me at all.

Can you imagine meeting someone who figures out why you’re so guarded?
Can you imagine finding someone who stays?
No matter what you put them through they always remain on the door waiting for you…